R.I.P Nunu :(

My aunt’s cat Nunu passed away last night. He’s been with us for 15 years.  This was the last photo I took of him around a month ago. . There is so much I want say but for some reason I don’t want to write it.

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The Other Shoe That Was Dropped

Part of a small collection of random subjects at my brother-in-law’s house.

 

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This collection was shot at my brother-in-law’s house/farm. I started shooting for no purpose but then I developed an idea. I wanted to show him his own turf in a new way that perhaps he never paid attention to. After two days, we sat down, I showed him the photos and we talked about half the things in there. The other half he didn’t even remember when was the last time he used or saw even though he lives there. The photos were engaging to him because it was personal to some degree. Someday, I hope my photography can engage people on a much wider scale.

 

I’m Back

It’s been a while! I have a lot to catch up on here but I don’t have many new photos to post. I was shooting film this past month – just familiarizing myself with an analog camera.

I only have one problem: there’s no more labs developing films here anymore so I had to send my rolls to France to be developped there then will be sent back to me scanned. That might take a while.

While researching film photography, I found that Tri-X 400 films have the aesthetic that I’ve been looking for so that’s what I’m shooting now. These first few rolls are more of a test. Once I see how they’ll turn up, I’ll get down to business.

Here’s an imperfect Tri-X 400 emulated look. edited by Silver Efex Pro.

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I will do my best to resume daily posting again! ^^

Purification

States of Mind: Purification

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When the baggage in my head becomes unbearably heavy I take a lonely walk and pretend it’s a dream where nothing else exists except me and raging Mesteerean winds and waters.

Alien Within

State of Mind: The Alien Within taken May 18, 2017 at 17:01.

Camera: CyberShot DSC-H7 edited with Ps CS4 & Analog Efex Pro 2

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I was walking in a narrow passage between trees and there’s a puddle of muddy water which reflected a distorted image of the trees above. For a second I actually wondered about this strange and alien mess on the puddle. I took a photo instinctively. then I realized it’s the trees! When I came back home and checked the photos, for some reason the photo still felt alien yet familiar.

States of Mind: Uncertainty

Uncertainty taken today at five in the afternoon.

Camera: CyberShot DSC-H7 edited with Analog Efex Pro 2

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I am plagued by uncertainty when certainty is required. Perhaps it is in big part the reason why my life isn’t moving forward as fast as I want. I’ve came to believe in doing things in my own pace though. If I haven’t, I’d have gone crazy a long time ago.

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I should have started learning photography by using an SLR instead of a digital piece!

A local photographer was more than kind to let me use one of his old SLRs. He gave me a fully manual and fully mechanical camera from 1971. I was hoping for a semi-auto to get me started but hey, I can’t complain. After starting the shoot, I was actually glad that I got this one.

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Its through-the-lens exposure meter is broken so that made using it a real challenge. At first I was overwhelmed but then I thought what the hell! I wanted to test my understand of exposure and light so I embraced the fact. We’ll see in a few days once I get the prints back. I’m pretty sure most if not all of them are off but this is my first roll and I’m not stopping until I master film photography one way or another.

I can tell you one thing I certainly enjoyed shooting with it. The strudiness of it and the sound of its shutter, everything about it. Taking a photo with my mirroless camera takes a couple of seconds; I can always fix it later. With this one, I have to work it out from all aspects and be patient and considerate of everything before I release the shutter. It demands respect for each photo I plan to take. I guess that’s what I learned from my first time using a SLR.

If I’m lucky and one or two photos from today’s roll are good exposures, I’ll scan and post them once the prints are ready. To be honest, I’m not that optimistic.

The Word I Didnt Know!

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything based on the Daily Prompts. So I thought it’s about time to check today’s word. Outlier. “I have no idea what that means!” that’s what I thought and that is the truth. English isn’t my native language so nobody can blame me for not knowing a word that doesn’t exist in the 3 dictionaries I own!

Anyways, I looked it up online and imagine my surprise when I finally learned that outlier actually describes me quite accurately.

I’m currently living the whole detachment from society thing. It started with me having a loner type character and a whole different set of interests than the people in my circles. I isolated myself, put everything I have in what I love doing until before I knew it I’m off the board, off the loop and off the map.

I was fine with it for some time until I realized that it wasn’t good for me. I think I talked about this in previous posts. I still don’t mind being an outlier; to my understanding of the term, I think i’m still an outlier but I’m working on changing that.

This blog and these types of posts are in fact part of me trying to change. I know my writing sucks and sometimes quite depressing but it helps me.

speaking of depressing, here’s a depressing self-portrait portraying the outlier within (or rather, without)!

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Picks from April, 5th 2017

I wanted to shoot this same landscape at sunset hoping that it’d make the sky more interesting. I couldn’t get what I wanted. The problem was my position (the only position from where I can get the same shot) is too low to get me a colorful sunset sky.

That didn’t stop me from shooting a few. I picked this one to share.

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I didn’t shoot HDR. I tried it before and I didn’t like it. I prefer nature/landscape photos to be accurate or slightly enhanced. but I digress. What I want to say is that this photo doesn’t look top quality because I processed it out of the RAW image below. I do think it’s still a decent shot, just not good for print.

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After the sun sunk behind that hill, I went up again and looked for interesting silhouette subjects and found none. Luckily, my friend was with me and I took a few shots. I picked this one (it’s a cliché but still). Usually, sun flares are no good and I avoid them as much as possible but this one sort of made the shot.

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We went on a little further. I looked for more subjects, still nothing except this fence post of a fence that isn’t there! anyway, I grabbed a few shots here.

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On my way back home, I found this unfinished building (don’t know if it’s a house or not) with some grass in the front and the toppled barrel. I thought it’s a great chunk of imperfection.

When shooting in my hometown, I close the door on shooting perfect-looking photographs and be ready to look around and capture the things that make my town what it is, a faithful portrayal.

Anyone else in town wouldn’t shoot this unfinished house because it looks plain and if they did, they wouldn’t put the barrel in the frame. I truly believe that barrel made the shot! This is my town and this is how it looks like. Period.

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Here’s another patch of my town.

It’s not the most beautiful photo, that’s for sure. But the fact that I put bits of my town into a frame is a statement in itself. I’m making it beautiful and interesting.

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The next two are my favorites of the day! I found an old and abandoned house. I called it Frankenstein’s House and you’ll see why.

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This turned out to be a longer post than I thought. sorry about that. I hope you enjoyed the photos. no worries if you didn’t though. You can lay it on me on a comment. I appreciate feedback. 🙂

Why Black and White?!

Most of the times I show my family and friends my monochrome pictures, I get a “why black and white?!” with a tone of disappointment. I reply half-heartedly with “I like how it looks” or “I just like it that way” because it’s a pain to explain.

I don’t have an issue with their reaction. This post isn’t for complaining. It’s my own response to that reaction that prompted me to this write. I want to give a true answer to that question. “Why black and white?!”

When I first started taking pictures – that would be around 8 years ago – my answer would have been “because it’s cool!” At that time, I knew nothing of photography. I just liked going out and taking pictures but I also preferred black and white back then – maybe not as much as now but still. The reason I did was because I had the childish idea that black and white photography is professional photography and if my pictures were in black and white they’d also look professional. man, I’m shrinking in my seat writing this down! it’s embarrassing!

Anyways, time moves on and my perception of things change as well as my understanding of photography in relation to myself. Now, at this stage (and only at this stage, because in a few years I will have learned more about myself and photography and I will have achieved yet another level of awareness. we always evolve.) I realize that black and white photography is what I’m ultimately learning photography for. I feel that no matter how uninteresting the subject is or how remote it is from myself, if I see it in black and white then that image in my head ends up representing a part of me most of the time.

I found that stripping a photograph of its colors is adding value to every pixel in it. Everything within the frame means something more than how my eyes naturally see it. And eventually it forms a bond with something in me, around me or makes me recall a certain life experience… whatever it does, it is ultimately an unseen thread of connection between the visible photograph and the invisible me. And that’s the kind of photography I want to one day produce. a black and white photography that touches other people from the inside and stirred them somehow.

Right now, I’m as far away from that as heaven and earth are but that’s the goal and that’s why I prefer black and white photography. Actually, I put it out in simple terms. This is one of those personal feelings that are hard for me to explain. I did my best though. And I hope it makes sense to even one reader. I’d be satisfied with that.

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Keep Calm and Process to Black and White

I only recently started getting into photography seriously so I don’t know many black and white artists but my favorite so far is Vassilis Tangoulis. If you don’t know him already, you should check out his work on 500px.