Blurred Vision – Lost

Hello again!

it’s been a while! (It seems that I’ve been saying that a lot in my recent posts! Of course, I post once every few months or so… )

Life knows how to shew a person then spit him out, I can tell you that! (ok, maybe that’s a bit too dramatic for my case. it sure feels like it though.)

I’ve always felt lost, it’s been one of my many struggles trying to deal with uncertainly and lack of determination. Recently, that feeling strengthened itself and took more of mine than ever before.

I don’t want to go through my negativity in detail here. I know nobody wants to get depressed. I just thought I’d share a couple of my recent photos that perhaps do better than my words.

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No post-processing done. set up the camera to B&W with a slight increase of contrast.

My laptop is broken so I had/have no way of working on RAWs anymore. I got the idea of going back to basics (Well, as basic as I could afford; I’d have preferred a couple of Tri-X 400 rolls but no resources where I live so I had to settle with digital JPG.)

I wanted to shoot without intention or vision (really, really difficult!), Something will come out of me and into the photos one way or another and that what I was looking for. I believe I was successful at least in the photos above.

Purification

States of Mind: Purification

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When the baggage in my head becomes unbearably heavy I take a lonely walk and pretend it’s a dream where nothing else exists except me and raging Mesteerean winds and waters.

Alien Within

State of Mind: The Alien Within taken May 18, 2017 at 17:01.

Camera: CyberShot DSC-H7 edited with Ps CS4 & Analog Efex Pro 2

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I was walking in a narrow passage between trees and there’s a puddle of muddy water which reflected a distorted image of the trees above. For a second I actually wondered about this strange and alien mess on the puddle. I took a photo instinctively. then I realized it’s the trees! When I came back home and checked the photos, for some reason the photo still felt alien yet familiar.

States of Mind: Uncertainty

Uncertainty taken today at five in the afternoon.

Camera: CyberShot DSC-H7 edited with Analog Efex Pro 2

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I am plagued by uncertainty when certainty is required. Perhaps it is in big part the reason why my life isn’t moving forward as fast as I want. I’ve came to believe in doing things in my own pace though. If I haven’t, I’d have gone crazy a long time ago.