First Roll!

Today I finally got the prints of my first film roll.

I have way too many things to say about it and I feel much more! Let’s start with how happy I am that I didn’t “entirely” over/underexpose the photos. Since I shot without depending on a light meter (which was broken in the camera). That means, I’m on the right track in understanding exposure and light. I lost a lot of details, that’s for sure but for a first time shooting film and using a camera I haven’t used before; I’ll give myself a break!

I’m not happy with the print quality though (you’ll see, my ancient scanner didn’t help either!). They even scratched the negative! This is the only lab left in the city and they’re going to close in about a month. I knew they’re not going to give a hoot if I complained so I didn’t.

Another issue was the film. The only film available was Agfa Vista 200. I wanted a black and white film preferrably tri-x 400. Anyways, I was happy enough to shoot film so it’s fine. For next time, I already ordered Tri-x from Europe and I’ll also send my negative to be developed there. no more labs here.

Okay, now to show you what I’m talking about.

Here’s my first disaster of a photo! I had serious problems with manual focusing. I think I got only 2 or 3 sharp photos, the rest are so-so or comletely off.


I wanted to get closer to the cats but I was afraid they’d run away.

Next few photos still shaky but I was getting the hang of it.

The dull colors made me decide to turn all of them to monochrome later on. Well, this is good red… I think.


I can certainly enhance the overal quality of the photos on photoshop but then again, if I wanted vivid colors and clinical look, I’d just shoot digital. It’s exactly why I wanted a black & white film. In my opinion, that’s where film photography shines as opposed to digital black and white and color films. Well that’s just what I get from seeing all kinds of film photos but maybe after I shoot all kinds of films myself my impression will change.

Back to the photos. there’s the decent ones in which I got the closest to a correct exposure.

The few exposures left in the rool I shot indoors and they turned out okay.

I haven’t scanned all the photos yet so I’ll post more once I do.

I’m certain about one thing now, I definitely have to learn to develop films and get me a scanner that scans negative! All that after I get a SLR though! The one I used I simply borrowed.

I chose the worst time possible to start shooting film since almost all the labs are shutting down in my country. It’ll be difficult but I’ll manage.


My Three Pillars of Photography

I got the idea of writing this post after a short conversation with fellow photography enthusiasts. What I came out with from the talk was that they believe that equipment is what makes a good photograph. I used to believe that too. I still do but within my own understanding of photography, I place equipment, quality and technique to be third after content and communication (which I think they go hand in hand) and composition.

Content, Communication, composition then equipment are what I believe to be the most important pillars of photography. I might be wrong, of course; that doesn’t change how I see things at the present. Perhaps after a few years of experience, I’ll possess more insight and wisdom to see things differently. For now, This is what I believe.


Content & Communication

A good photograph is a photograph that tells a story or communicates an idea, a feeling, a message, or a state of mind etc. it is safe to say that communication is photography’s most important purpose. A father takes a photo of his newly born son with his smartphone and shares it with the world because perhaps his happiness at that moment is too great to keep to himself. Communicating that moment is the photograph’s purpose. A photographer takes the notion of communication even further by creating a photograph with depth and careful consideration of what they’re trying to say through the limits of the frame.

Despite my bias towards black and white photography, I still go through all the photos that are in front me without prejudice and with only one goal: meaning. Whatever the photography type is, I’m always looking for the meaning behind it and/or the emotional reaction I’d get from it. If I can’t find that then the photo failed to communicate with me. In my opinion, those photos are not good enough even if they’ve been taken with state of the art equipment and show great technique. I believe that that link between the photographer, the photograph and the audience is achieved through careful composition.



In almost every good photograph I’ve seen, I found that composition to be a key element in passing on the photograph’s message to me. Without good content and communication in mind, composition alone would only produce a beautiful photo. However, a photo with good content and without good composition ends up wasting its potential. Composition makes sense of everything inside the frame. It is also, in my opinion, the channeler of the photographer’s view of the subject.

The beauty of composition is in its unlimited variety of perspectives through which one can present the subject. A near-endless reservoir of angles where each one pulls a different reaction from the viewer. After I learned about composition, I finally understood the difference between relying on high-end equipment and focusing on composition first. And I asked myself “why would I lament not having enough equipment when there is a skill that only needs my eyes and my hands to apply on whatever camera I have?” From that moment on, I stopped blaming the lack of equipment (i still do actually but not as much) and I kept on improving my composition skills and photography sense with only a mirrorless camera and a kit lens.

One more advantage of composition is that you don’t have to follow rules. There is no right or wrong as long as your frame arrangement gets your point across. It is also easier to experiment and innovate with composition than with other aspects of photography. Experimenting with equipment such as lenses requires quite the technical knowledge but you don’t need that in composition. You’re pretty much free to do as you please. In short, if you’re a beginner like me, composition is our best ally.

Equipment / Technique / Quality

After content/communication and composition comes quality which is mostly achieved by good equipment. So far, I’ve been focusing so much on the first two and treating the technical aspect as if it’s not needed at all but that is not true. It just means that at this point, I believe that technical quality of the image is less important for me than the quality of content.

Good cameras, lenses, filters etc offer even more ways for the photographer to put his/her vision into a physical photograph and also assure good technical quality. Sometimes, what I have in mind can only be achieved by possessing certain equipment and I’m left wishing I have money to buy that but at the same time, I don’t want that to extinguish my passion for photography So I keep on creating photography the best I can with what I have.

This is just my own opinion but I don’t really like “perfect” looking photographs! They feel too clinical and meticulous, they leave me wondering just how much processing has been done! I like my work to be imperfect. Nothing is perfect, after all. I guess that’s why I chose a rough look for my Ingrained in the Night series. It just fits within my view of the world. I’d really love to have more lenses, filters, lighting equipment and maybe even have my own studio, that will definitely expand my plans on exploring all types of photography. For now, I’m trying to look at this lack of equipment issue as a challenge that will eventually force me to be more creative. I even went to shoot a football (soccer) match with a 18-55mm kit lens! Obviously, it didn’t work out but I still went and I got myself a couple of decent shots. What I’m trying to say is that equipment isn’t everything and that there are more important things to focus on in photography than how many lenses or cameras I have.

Many street photographers take photos using their smartphones when they don’t have their cameras. When they see an interesting subject, they don’t disregard it and move on just because they’re not carrying their best camera, they grab whatever they have on them and capture the moment and that’s the essence of photography in my opinion.


Although this article lacks details and examples, not to mention it comes completely from a personal point of view, I still hope it makes sense to you. I’d also love to hear your opinions on this matter. So feel free to state your opinion in a comment or two.

Why Black and White?!

Most of the times I show my family and friends my monochrome pictures, I get a “why black and white?!” with a tone of disappointment. I reply half-heartedly with “I like how it looks” or “I just like it that way” because it’s a pain to explain.

I don’t have an issue with their reaction. This post isn’t for complaining. It’s my own response to that reaction that prompted me to this write. I want to give a true answer to that question. “Why black and white?!”

When I first started taking pictures – that would be around 8 years ago – my answer would have been “because it’s cool!” At that time, I knew nothing of photography. I just liked going out and taking pictures but I also preferred black and white back then – maybe not as much as now but still. The reason I did was because I had the childish idea that black and white photography is professional photography and if my pictures were in black and white they’d also look professional. man, I’m shrinking in my seat writing this down! it’s embarrassing!

Anyways, time moves on and my perception of things change as well as my understanding of photography in relation to myself. Now, at this stage (and only at this stage, because in a few years I will have learned more about myself and photography and I will have achieved yet another level of awareness. we always evolve.) I realize that black and white photography is what I’m ultimately learning photography for. I feel that no matter how uninteresting the subject is or how remote it is from myself, if I see it in black and white then that image in my head ends up representing a part of me most of the time.

I found that stripping a photograph of its colors is adding value to every pixel in it. Everything within the frame means something more than how my eyes naturally see it. And eventually it forms a bond with something in me, around me or makes me recall a certain life experience… whatever it does, it is ultimately an unseen thread of connection between the visible photograph and the invisible me. And that’s the kind of photography I want to one day produce. a black and white photography that touches other people from the inside and stirred them somehow.

Right now, I’m as far away from that as heaven and earth are but that’s the goal and that’s why I prefer black and white photography. Actually, I put it out in simple terms. This is one of those personal feelings that are hard for me to explain. I did my best though. And I hope it makes sense to even one reader. I’d be satisfied with that.

Keep Calm and Process to Black and White

I only recently started getting into photography seriously so I don’t know many black and white artists but my favorite so far is Vassilis Tangoulis. If you don’t know him already, you should check out his work on 500px.


Hollywood Live-Action Adaptations of Manga & Anime

I always ask why do anime fans hate hollywood adaptations of anime titles so much? I ask that question to myself too since I also hate that idea. Although eventually I realized that I simply hate it because everybody else hates it too. It’s not reasonable for me to hate it then. So I tried to be open about it until I watched the trailer of Dragon Ball Evolution and then I got a real reason to hate it! However, I still kept an open mind.

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The Revolution We Needed

When having a casual talk with my family or other people in general and the topic changes to politics in the country, I always end up saying “I’m not even sure the true revolution even happened.” then they would look at me funny.

I’m proud to be a Tunisian. I witnessed and lived the revolution (I wish I could say I partook in it.) I know it happened. As if I have the right to confirm or deny whether such a historical feat took place or not! So what went through their minds wasn’t a doubt in my sanity, it was suspision. they probably thought I believed in the toppled regime. I couldn’t care less about the old regime the same way I don’t give a hoot about the new one.

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Miyazaki and My Vision of Anime

I’ve been an anime fans for more than a decade. I only realized recently that I never watched many of the anime classics. Among them is the bulk of Ghibli movies and mainly Hayao Miyazaki’s. I’ve seen one or two years ago but that was a long time ago when I wasn’t mature enough to realize the genius of his works.

So I decided to watch all of them and I started this week with My Neighbor Totoro, Princess Mononoke and Kiki’s Delivery Service.

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Random Access Pictures: 08/08/2016

♦ Artifact ♦

This piece was found in my family’s property years ago. A history professor from our town checked it out and said it’s fine to keep it. That’s what I remember. I was really small at the time. I wish I remember how old it is. I guess we’ll take it to a museum soon.

Seeing something that survived centuries broadens one’s perception of the “timeline”. We all wake up everyday to do what we do for our futures and some of us just live for the day. Especially in our current time, we get swallowed whole into the fast-paced modern life that we seldom notice leaving behind some of our history and traditions. This is a personal opinion of course but I do believe it is happening. At least in my country, I’m witnessing the growing disregard for our heritage. It’s such a shame. There is no such thing as an argument against progress but let’s not lose our identity in the process.

More posts of Random Access Pictures:

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Materialism and the Myth of Happiness and Well-being (1/2)

Okay, I thought this might need to be headed by a disclaimer of sorts! I don’t want anyone thinking this is a blog where I post serious articles and such! this is still a personal blog. It just happens that this was my first attempt at a long serious article. I was kinda proud of it at first but not so much now. I’m work in progress (especially in English).

This was a sort of an article I wrote a while ago in another blog. I was supposed to write a second part soon after but I got side tracked by other stuff. (maybe I’ll get to it soon.) 

I just copy pasted this ’cause It’s a long entry and a pain to proofread again! :p 



In this article, I am going to talk about the concept of materialism that has been dominating the modern world. It is a concept that I am greatly interested in and I believe that it largely constitutes the root of the degradation of modern society. Regretfully, I can’t go into much detail as this is not an academic paper (even if it does sound a bit serious!). There is only so much that I can mention here. I will only define the concepts briefly so I can focus more on the aim of this article which is the role of media in promoting material values and the negative effects of materialism on modern society.


To put it simply, materialism is everything that is physical or has to do with matter. It is the belief in the value of the physical. Oxford defines it as “the belief that money, possessions and physical comforts are more important than spiritual values”. In our relevant context, Russell Belk (1984) defines materialism as “the tendency to view worldly possessions as important sources of satisfaction in life“. This doctrine teaches that happiness and well-being are only reached by material values such as possession, wealth and social status and not by spiritual ones such as self-actualization, religions and social interaction. However rewarding the promise of wealth is, it is not free of cost. Many studies shows that the cost of such a belief is more harmful than it is healthy. Moreover, the promise itself is in question. It is a promise that has been sold to us.

Materialism and Consumerism

Just a quick idea here that materialism and consumerism are tightly connected in socio-economic context. Consumerism might be both cause and consequence of materialism and vice versa.


Materialism came to be very prominent in modern society to the point where some even call it the new religion. I believe that it became this pervasive due to capitalism’s free-market system and the advancement of communication technology. by an interchangeably-beneficial relationship,  The total freedom of economy and the sharing of information allowed by communication technologies (e.g radio, television, internet..) increasingly and gradually let loose modern society’s material side. And especially nowadays, we can easily see and witness how the media works in ways as to ensure more sells and consumption.

Part One

The Role of Media

Media plays an important part in cultivating the consumer aspect of our society. As it is the case with the material aspect, since materialism has always been present throughout history but only in modern age that it was enhanced tremendously. The rigid, pragmatic capitalist system of modern world has been and the ultimate platform for materialistic values, including consumerism, to thrive. However, consumer-oriented media encouraged the materialistic characteristics of modern society.

Mass Media at work

Mass media are diverse in our society and some of them are more influential and widespread than others. Anyone can see that the image is practically everywhere in our lives. It takes many forms ranging from a simple picture in a magazine or newspaper to a long film shown on the big screen. Its purpose varies as well. The image can serve as an ad you see on billboards or an audiovisual commercial in television; it can be a source of entertainment or simply a work of art. In this section, we will see how all those forms of audio-visual media influence the audience into consumerism and instill materialistic values.


The first and most important tool for that process is advertising as it is the direct medium between the producer and the consumer. By nature, the purpose of advertising is materialistic. Ads make you believe that you can only be happy and satisfied if you acquire the product. Nevertheless, advertisers use many methods that are based on studying the audience’s psychology and sociology to increase the persuasion rate as much as possible. Most of those methods also involve materialistic themes. That overdose of material themes added to the repetition and the amount of ads that invade our streets, magazines, television, internet and even movies tip the balance greatly to the materialistic side of the audience. It is so widespread and pervasive that it is bound to influence the audience, consciously or unconsciously. Being vulnerably open and receptive to that massive amount of materialistic input partly shaped the modern society into the consumer and materialistic society we know now. One of the methods used extensively in advertising is sex appeal.

Sex sells!

Similar to the connection between consumerism and materialism, the fact that the purpose of ads is to sell products is enough to see that it encourages materialism and so is the use of sex appeal in ads. The exploitation of the human body for the purpose of selling products has been the mark of modern advertising. This exploitation is used in many ways such as nudity/partial nudity, the subtle allusion to the private parts of the human body (sexual embeds), sexual behavior, physical attractiveness, and sexually-evocative images and slogans (sexual referents) (Limbiase and Reichert, 2003).

However, sexual appeal is used not for itself but for the sake of the product which is mostly depicted as synonymous with a naked body (mostly a woman’s). The product is humanized yet the human is objectified. This is shown in the way many ads shape their products in the form of a naked body part(sexual embeds). An example for that is a placement of two burger sandwiches as to look like breasts (see images below). That shows that sex in advertising is not really sex as much as it is an artificial desire for consumption that replaces the real desire and numbs the audience’s feelings. In this respect, it is dangerously materialistic for it erases the spiritual and sympathetic parts in the human, thus objectifying the human. What are we if all we are is dead inside?

Advertising adopt a very materialistic and harmful approach to deliver what could have been a very simple and harmless message. The result of such an approach has not only turned the whole world into consumers but also trapped them into an unending cycle of an illusionary happiness and stripped them away of ethical and spiritual values. (more of this in Part Two)

Aside from advertising as direct link between producer and consumer, there are other forms of media such as TV shows, films and music industry which are outside the producer-consumer circle, but play an extremely important role in calling out to and cementing the materialistic values in modern society.

Television, movies and music industry

It is far from exaggeration when I say that these forms of media are the ultimate tools for spreading and widening the scope for material values. If every one of us would just take a look at their own immediate entourage, they would notice, for one, how attached we are to television. A bowl of popcorn, a bottle of coca cola and a couch in front of a TV is pretty much the simplest modern image. But because it is simple, it makes my point for me. It is so ordinary and common in modern society that it begs the question: why is it so? It is so because we have been conformed to that image.

Similarly, scripted shows deliver to the audience a drooling, materialistic image of a lifestyle. TV series, for instance, portray wealth in an exaggerated manner that is not in accordance with reality. The same kind of portrayal can be applied to violence and crime. Clearly, there is a discrepancy between what is shown in television (in media, in general. Television is just an example) and what is real. The reality created by media imprints on the viewers in a way that they believe that that reality is real and that it is what they need in their lives. Ultimately, their behavior conforms to everything they watch on a screen.

Keep that idea in mind while we consider television, cinema and music industry and the various themes that they portray and promote.


We will not talk about commercials here since it’s been covered as Ads above. However, even more important types of audiovisual programs have their share in promoting materialism such as TV shows and TV series.

There is so much materialistic content in TV shows. For instance, celebrity news shows and fashion shows keep the consumption cycle going by creating new trends seasonally. Besides, since their main focus is fashion/celebrity news, they play a part in glorifying trivial matters. For example, many of these shows rank what Hollywood celebrities wear in Academy awards and whatnot as well as rank the “hotness” of celebrities!

Much like celebrity news shows, scripted drama also portrays materialistic themes and values. As we have mentioned above, TV series depict a fake reality; one that inflates wealth (e.g, among middle class). This inflation feeds the audience an imaginary extravagant lifestyle which eventually they would long for. Cars, houses, clothes, etc… even if they can’t afford it, they would take loans so they could.

The most popular scripted shows have crime and violence as dominant themes. The prevalence of violence as it desensitizes the audience is a contributing factor to tuning up material aspects. Such themes are even more dominant in movies.


Most Hollywood movies have violence as main theme as well as shallow and superficial plots. An example of such movies is the action genre. Action films are by definition action-driven rather than character-driven which means they are more about material themes and less about human relationships and spiritual values.

Moreover, Hollywood movies focus on pragmatism and individualism. They portray loss of life as normal and even justified for the cause of their save-the-day main character. Everything is set up to work in perfect systematic logic that doesn’t leave much room for feelings and faith.

The majority of Hollywood TV shows and movies do not engage the audience’s intellect. In contrast, they dull the mind and make it more receptive and susceptible to persuasion. That being said, there are always exceptions.

Music industry

Talking about the state of music industry and how important its role is in spreading materialism is personally painful. I will be brief on this.

It is needless to stress how materialistic and ethically questionable the music industry has become. Themes of violence, money and sex constitute the majority of the industry’s production in modern times. Promotional videos are almost bordering on pornographic contents. The music itself became hollow.  It talks to the body more than it talks to the feelings or the mind. And it all originates from greed. Commercialization of music had a significant role in raising popular culture, cultivating an audience that glorifies trivialities and erasing every possible path that leads to an awareness of our own true reality.


Media influences modern society, directly and indirectly, consciously and unconsciously, to consume and consume some more. And even after being internalized to believe that our desire will only be quenched by possession and consumption, that same belief, simultaneously, is being broken so we would consume over and over again. As a result, modern society is reshaped into easily-guided, empty-shell consumers which ultimately allowed materialism to grow to be as pervasive in most parts of the world as it is today.

As we have seen, it all starts with an empty promise of happiness and well-being achieved by consumption and possession. But it never ends because in reality, happiness and well-being through only material values is a myth. In return, there are only extreme negative effects on the individual, the community and the globe.

References (of sorts):

Oxford Advanced Learner’s Dictionary – 8th Edition.

Belk, Russell W. and Richard W. Pollay (1985b), “Materialism and Magazine Advertising During the Twentieth Century,” Advances in Consumer Research, Vol. 12, eds., Elizabeth C. Hirschman and Morris B. Holbrook, p394.

Lambiase, J. & Reichert. T, (2003). Sex in advertising. Mahwah, NJ: Lawrence Erlbaum Associates. p13-14.

The New Shounen: Human Connection at the Center

I just completed Noragami Aragato. and a thought crossed my mind about shounen anime.

It looks like the mainstream action shounen genre is finally starting to morph into a deeper and smarter popular genre that doesn’t insult the audience’s intelligence.

In Noragami Aragato, human connection and character development (as opposed to mindless action and fan-service) are set on the foreground of the story. There are full and nearly uneventful episodes exploring only the characters’ feelings and their interactions. When it is time for the action, the characters’ relationships have a strong influence on the outcome of the fights.

noragami aragato

Ushio to Tora and Haikyuu! are good examples of such an approach to the shounen genre. The characters develop thanks to their interaction with one another. It’s a psychological portrayal  without the complicated rendition of the psychological genre itself. We’re still in a mainstream shounen circle, after all. That’s why it’s smart and as real as it can get for a shounen (as opposed to seinen and more mature genres).

Almost all shounen stories emphasize friendship. It’s the formula, i guess! but the way they go about it is what’s important to me. They can make it a mere launchpad to throw at us their 2 to 3 episode-long fights like in Bleach or make it the core of the story and keep the action aspect at the rim like in Noragami Aragato. I most certainly prefer the latter.

This new shounen is still rare but it’s getting there. Maybe I’m being harsh on the shounen shows but that’s probably because I’m a seinen fan. (I’m in my late twenties too so..!) Still, I enjoy a good shounen when it’s not too childish and entirely action-oriented.

I think the only title that encompassed all those elements and I still tolerate and even consider one of the best animes out there is One Piece. Whoever you are, I’m sure you agree! 🙂

My Anime Preferences & Spring Season Line-up 2016

Since this is my first post about anime, I need to lay out the grounds before moving on. It’s going to be a long post so bear with it. All titles are linked to their respective pages on 

I’ve been a fan of anime for quite some time. I used to watch all that I could find –  everything. However, free time and free mind aren’t and won’t always be free. There are priorities. Now I no longer watch everything that every season has to offer.

What I do now is select a line-up of three or four anime on every season based on my favorite genres and preferences. (To be honest, I haven’t been able to be up-to-date even with the titles I chose. I always end up marathoning them months later!)

Well, my preferences  are many but also strict and unique: Science fiction (preferably, with great animation and post-apocalyptic themes), action/martial arts/supernatural (with a unique story and story-telling), slice of life (no school-life crap, the darker, more tragic the better) and sports (realistic and smart). It’s also important that any anime I watch focuses on character’s psychological developments. I also like the philosophical type; great examples of that are two of my all time favorites: Ergo Proxy and Wolf’s Rain. I like mystery too. not the detective type but the enigmatic and arcane.

Having listed my preferences, an outlook on the current spring season clearly shows that it offers very few interesting titles for my taste. But there bound to be at least one title that surprises (very much like Boku Dake Ga Inai Machi and Ajin in Winter Season 2016). We’ll see.

This season is full of mainstream shounen series which are not my go-to shows but I don’t particularly hate them when they’re done intelligently. I think Boku no Hero Academia is great within shounen parameters. Sousei no Onmyouji is a also okay. It’s got good action scenes and good animation so at least, I’m watching it for that.

My favorite shounen this season is the continuation of Ushio to Tora. First season gave me some serious feels! so I’m sticking to it this season too. Besides, I like stories that are inspired by Japanese folklore such as Youkai.

The previous titles are manga-based. There are also a few decent original anime this season. Bungou Stray Dogs and Kiznaiver are good examples. Bungou Stray Dogs is brought to us by my favorite studio, Bones (Darker than BLACK, Wolf’s Rain, Cowboy Bebop, FMA: Brotherhood). I’m definitely watching that!

The only anime that really drew me in though is Koutetsujou no Kabaneri! Awesome animation and story!  I hate zombie shows but this one got me hooked and I don’t think it’s going to let me go! That coming from someone like me should tell you something. Zombie-like creatures in a steampunk/industrial/feudal Japan is a unique premise to say the least. The protagonist is really likeable. After just one episode, his potential as a character is already radiating.


I haven’t been able to watch Joker Game but it seems like it’s right up my alley. I’ll check it as soon as possible.

My Line-up: (I just hope I’ll have the time and mood to keep up!)

Koutetsujou no Kabaneri

Ushio to Tora (2nd Season)

Bungou Stray Dogs

Boku no Hero Academia

and possibly Joker Game.

I skipped a lot of titles based on genres and themes that are just not for me. but If you want to check everything here’s a Spring Season 2016 Anime Chart and a link to MAL’s Seasonal Anime page.

This was my introduction post into my anime preferences and the titles I have chosen to watch this season. It was also my intention to highlight a few titles that perhaps people with similar taste might enjoy too.

until the next anime post! 🙂